FUCK!

Because that sums up how I feel today!

That is all.

TOMORROW IS A NEW DAY...

Here I sit. All is QUIET!  In this big ol' room, in Cambria. At the Lodge. I have 3 more nights. WHAT WAS I THINKING? Coming alone, with two babies? I'm so incredibly tired I can't think.
BUT....I did get in some good activity yesterday when I got here. Went to Shamel Park and chased babies in two different directions at one time!  Up on the play equipment, down on the ground! I was out of breath by the time we left.
This morning, I got invited to go on a walk. YEA I say! WOOHOO I say!

     H O L Y S H I T I say!

I nearly died! It started off good. Cool, shade, nice big pine trees. We are at a fast pace. BAM! Hill. Uh. Hill!  Hill. HILL!!! They are all chattering away and keeping pace. I'm am huffing and puffing, not speaking a word.
I fall behind. I don't care...I'm gunna die!
I managed to mutter "I'm coming, don't worry....about...me..." as they looked back, still chatting up a storm.

TOP! Woo. I'm pouring sweat, face beat red. OH GOD NO! I forgot my water bottle!
Oh look, uphill again. Still muttering "ha" and "ohh" on occasion, just listening to their stories and my heart beating half out of my chest.
I guess it was only like a mile?? But it felt like 5. My body was already sore. I'm now so dry mouthed I couldn't speak if I wanted too!

Oh, did I fail to mention I forgot my walking shoes, so I'm wearing my half ass wanna be tennis shoes?
Yeah!  My feet are raw and blistered on the soles. VAN!  OH THANK GOD!  I just might make it.

Water!  WATER!  WATER!

They were talking about "Glutus Maximus Mountain climb" err uh walk on Friday.

I'm passing.

Time to start walking at home! Tomorrow, I'll walk around the Lodge and gardens, providing my feet didn't fall off in the night!

At least I'm eating decently!

i CAN NEVER FIGURE OUT how i GET TO MY BLOG....TO BLOG. It's just by chance I stumble upon it. NO SHIT!!!  I don't even know if it saves what I write. I'm not a "professional blogger". Nor do I want to be. Hell, I'm not a professional computer whiz. Email, face book, maybe a tweet or 2 and myfitnesspal. Oh, and PICTURES! That's about the extent of my comp knowledge.

I'd love to know how to make my page pretty...or cute....or eye catching. But I don't want to sit here and waste my time trying to figure it out.

So...jumped on that weight wagon once again cause fuck!  I'm getting old. I don't want to be FAT TOO! Changing my eating habits will help. (So YES!  The ENTIRE family will too).  No more crap food in my house. Clean eating, one day at a time!
I'm down 3.1 pounds this week. GOING TO TOOT MY DAMN HORN! That is what motivates me to not eat greasy yummy tasting food...or candy bars or cookies. Or SHIT period!

I'm about watered out, but I keep chugging!  I barely did 2 MAYBE 3 bottles a day. I'm now doing 8 to 10 8 ounces a day now!

Who cares?  I don't care if anyone does. I'm doing this for ME!

Well, well, well.
Not sure I have enough time to sit here, longer on this machine. But what the hell.  I gotta try and figure this blog crap out. So, I can write, release and make it be.

Have once again, jumped on the weight wagon. Grabbed some friends on the way. Hoping to get back that motivation we had a couple of years ago.
It's NOT easy. I'm tired of being tired. I need more energy to keep up w/ my lil minions. They run me ragged, I ain't gunna lie. But they are my LIFE! And they give more meaning to life than I can possibly say.
I'm tracking my calories, because it works best for me. It makes me THINK before I stuff it in my mouth. Yeah, I may give in on occasion. But I won't beat myself up over it.

I'm going to drown myself in water. It worked yesterday. I was full MOST of the day just by drinking extra water.

Had an awesome deep tissue massage from Dr. Rhan on Sunday. Have another one in 2 weeks. He couldn't believe all the knots in my body.

Yes, it's time. Time to get myself looking better, so that I feel better. I was not this fat (ever) when I met my husband. My eating habits went to shit. THAT HAS GOT TO STOP! I don't want my children eating crap food.

So, I'm off to the garage to drag in my stair stepper. It's covered in dust and crap from sitting there...being neglected. I'd love to join the gym again, but with 2 babies, that can't happen right now. So, I have to create my own workout gym here, in my tiny house. Later today, I have a date w/ Jillian. She kicked my ass before, I just ended up cancelling my dates. Not good!

So, here ya go. I know everybody and their dog blog now. And I don't give a crap if I'm the only one that sees this. I'm doing this for ME, so I can live for THEM!

Look out garage, I'm coming in....