Been quite the crazy 4 weeks. My mind is a flutter of mess. Hoped off this weight loss wagon....ugh. I was down 9 freaking lbs. Time to just DO IT. Sick of allergies. Sick of stupid people. And sick of being tired.

WE did manage to have a fun weekend w/ the best kids! Monster trucks Friday night, Harvest pumpkin festival Saturday.

This weekend however...NOTHING. No fixing shit, no going somewhere. JUST RELAX. Relax and do nothing. Save up for following weekend! Yes, a weekend get away.

And so ready to make some changes in life. MAJOR CHANGES. It is TIME. Not just the typical "oh I need to lose some weight, get more organized blah blah blahhh" kind.

I'm talking C H A N G E! Time to sit down and discuss and come up w/ a plan!  IT IS TIME!

I have no funny, no motivation, no energy. So, off to clean house, maybe just snuggle w/ my babies and do nothing...today.

FUCK!

Because that sums up how I feel today!

That is all.

TOMORROW IS A NEW DAY...

Here I sit. All is QUIET!  In this big ol' room, in Cambria. At the Lodge. I have 3 more nights. WHAT WAS I THINKING? Coming alone, with two babies? I'm so incredibly tired I can't think.
BUT....I did get in some good activity yesterday when I got here. Went to Shamel Park and chased babies in two different directions at one time!  Up on the play equipment, down on the ground! I was out of breath by the time we left.
This morning, I got invited to go on a walk. YEA I say! WOOHOO I say!

     H O L Y S H I T I say!

I nearly died! It started off good. Cool, shade, nice big pine trees. We are at a fast pace. BAM! Hill. Uh. Hill!  Hill. HILL!!! They are all chattering away and keeping pace. I'm am huffing and puffing, not speaking a word.
I fall behind. I don't care...I'm gunna die!
I managed to mutter "I'm coming, don't worry....about...me..." as they looked back, still chatting up a storm.

TOP! Woo. I'm pouring sweat, face beat red. OH GOD NO! I forgot my water bottle!
Oh look, uphill again. Still muttering "ha" and "ohh" on occasion, just listening to their stories and my heart beating half out of my chest.
I guess it was only like a mile?? But it felt like 5. My body was already sore. I'm now so dry mouthed I couldn't speak if I wanted too!

Oh, did I fail to mention I forgot my walking shoes, so I'm wearing my half ass wanna be tennis shoes?
Yeah!  My feet are raw and blistered on the soles. VAN!  OH THANK GOD!  I just might make it.

Water!  WATER!  WATER!

They were talking about "Glutus Maximus Mountain climb" err uh walk on Friday.

I'm passing.

Time to start walking at home! Tomorrow, I'll walk around the Lodge and gardens, providing my feet didn't fall off in the night!

At least I'm eating decently!

i CAN NEVER FIGURE OUT how i GET TO MY BLOG....TO BLOG. It's just by chance I stumble upon it. NO SHIT!!!  I don't even know if it saves what I write. I'm not a "professional blogger". Nor do I want to be. Hell, I'm not a professional computer whiz. Email, face book, maybe a tweet or 2 and myfitnesspal. Oh, and PICTURES! That's about the extent of my comp knowledge.

I'd love to know how to make my page pretty...or cute....or eye catching. But I don't want to sit here and waste my time trying to figure it out.

So...jumped on that weight wagon once again cause fuck!  I'm getting old. I don't want to be FAT TOO! Changing my eating habits will help. (So YES!  The ENTIRE family will too).  No more crap food in my house. Clean eating, one day at a time!
I'm down 3.1 pounds this week. GOING TO TOOT MY DAMN HORN! That is what motivates me to not eat greasy yummy tasting food...or candy bars or cookies. Or SHIT period!

I'm about watered out, but I keep chugging!  I barely did 2 MAYBE 3 bottles a day. I'm now doing 8 to 10 8 ounces a day now!

Who cares?  I don't care if anyone does. I'm doing this for ME!

Well, well, well.
Not sure I have enough time to sit here, longer on this machine. But what the hell.  I gotta try and figure this blog crap out. So, I can write, release and make it be.

Have once again, jumped on the weight wagon. Grabbed some friends on the way. Hoping to get back that motivation we had a couple of years ago.
It's NOT easy. I'm tired of being tired. I need more energy to keep up w/ my lil minions. They run me ragged, I ain't gunna lie. But they are my LIFE! And they give more meaning to life than I can possibly say.
I'm tracking my calories, because it works best for me. It makes me THINK before I stuff it in my mouth. Yeah, I may give in on occasion. But I won't beat myself up over it.

I'm going to drown myself in water. It worked yesterday. I was full MOST of the day just by drinking extra water.

Had an awesome deep tissue massage from Dr. Rhan on Sunday. Have another one in 2 weeks. He couldn't believe all the knots in my body.

Yes, it's time. Time to get myself looking better, so that I feel better. I was not this fat (ever) when I met my husband. My eating habits went to shit. THAT HAS GOT TO STOP! I don't want my children eating crap food.

So, I'm off to the garage to drag in my stair stepper. It's covered in dust and crap from sitting there...being neglected. I'd love to join the gym again, but with 2 babies, that can't happen right now. So, I have to create my own workout gym here, in my tiny house. Later today, I have a date w/ Jillian. She kicked my ass before, I just ended up cancelling my dates. Not good!

So, here ya go. I know everybody and their dog blog now. And I don't give a crap if I'm the only one that sees this. I'm doing this for ME, so I can live for THEM!

Look out garage, I'm coming in....

MAKES ME IRATE!

This is only one State...............If this doesn't open your eyes nothing will!?
From the L. A. Times
1. 40% of all workers in L. A. County (L. A. County has 10.2 million people) are working for cash and not paying taxes. This is because they are predominantly illegal immigrants working without a green card.
2. 95% of warrants for murder in Los Angeles are for illegal aliens.
3. 75% of people on the most wanted list in Los Angeles are illegal aliens..
4. Over 2/3 of all births in Los Angeles County are to illegal alien Mexicans on Medi-Cal, whose births were paid for by taxpayers.
5. Nearly 35% of all inmates in California detention centers are Mexican nationals here illegally
6. Over 300,000 illegal aliens in Los Angeles County are living in garages..
7. The FBI reports half of all gang members in Los Angeles are most likely illegal aliens from south of the border.
8. Nearly 60% of all occupants of HUD properties are illegal.
9. 21 radio stations in L. A. are Spanish speaking.
10. In L. A. County 5.1 million people speak English, 3.9 million speak Spanish. (There are 10.2 million people in L. A. County )
(All 10 of the above are from the Los Angeles Times)
Less than 2% of illegal aliens are picking our crops, but 29% are on welfare. Over 70% of the United States ' annual population growth (and over 90% of California, Florida , and New York ) results from immigration. 29% of inmates in federal prisons are illegal aliens.
We are a bunch of fools for letting this continue
HOW CAN YOU HELP?
Send copies of this letter to at least two other people. 100 would be even better.

My country...GET LEGAL...OR GET OUT!

Let's say I break into your house . . .



A lady wrote the best letter in the Editorials in ages!!! It explains things better than all the baloney you hear on TV.


Her point:


Recently, large demonstrations have taken place across the country, protesting the fact that Arizona is finally addressing the issue of illegal immigration.



Certain people are angry that the U.S. might protect its own borders, might make it harder to sneak into this country and, once here, to stay indefinitely.


Let me see if I correctly understand the thinking behind these protests.

Let's say I break into your house. Let's say that when you discover me in your house, you insist that I leave.


But I say, "I've made all the beds and washed the dishes and did the laundry and swept the floors. I've done all the things you don't like to do. I'm hard-working and honest (except for when I broke into your house).



According to the protesters:


You are Required to let me stay in your house.

You are Required to add me to your family's insurance plan.

You are Required to Educate my kids.

You are Required to Provide other benefits to me & to my family (my husband will do all of your yard work because he is also hard-working and honest, except for that breaking in part).



If you try to call the police or force me out, I will call my friends who will picket your house carrying signs that proclaim my RIGHT to be there. It's only fair, after all, because you have a nicer house than I do, and I'm just trying to better myself. I'm a hard-working and honest, person, exc ept for well, you know, I did break into your house. And oh yeah, I get a free education, where you have to pay your own way through college.(TEEHEE)

And what a deal it is for me!!!




I live in your house, contributing only a fraction of the cost of my keep, and there is nothing you can do about it without being accused of cold,



uncaring, selfish, prejudiced, and bigoted behavior.




Oh yeah, I DEMAND that you learn MY LANGUAGE!!! So you can communicate with me. And don't forget to make sure your forms are in MY language - I need to understand them...




Why can't people see how ridiculous this is?! Only in America !

If you agree, pass it on ( in English ).

Share it if you see the value of it.



If not blow it off.........

Along with your future Social Security funds, and a lot of other things!